Discouragement
burdens of the life
every time I refuse to recognize

complicated by the pride
laying down on the pile of lies

how many times I confess the state of my mind
perhaps, you can't see from the bright side

the difference between burdens and efforts
this must be our farewell

the difference between burdens and efforts
this is the truth of our discouragement


the disappointment within opposite stances
same old problems, same old explanations
and we still try by ourselves

as we grow up, we through the things away
it's hard to change myself,

but circumstances always change
and now we lost the way we were


I still sustain the strain in every breath
and close my eyes to comfort myself with flashing back memories

I thought that resignation is the hardest way
but these scenes of sins are harder

the past choices make me feel like my birth was a mistake

why we deplore
why we mourn for things we abandoned
when we take this consequences and responsibility


this time I'm coming clean my weakness
show and prove my resolve to carry the burdens

and call it "effort to live my own life"
and this cornerstone of my last smile


this is the starting over


some old man said "when I start again in miles away"
" keep myself and find the way"
well, I've not been miles away but I close to find the way